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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p24 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p24
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p23 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p23
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p22 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p22
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p21 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p21
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p20 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p20
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p19 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p19
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p18 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p18
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p17 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p17
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p16 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p16
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p15 by Treyzuka
2016 24 Hour Challenge 'Tired' p15
This is my entry for the 2016 24 Hour Challenge. It is not a particularly formal challenge this year, we have not got any prizes, there is no judging, we are just doing this because we like doing it. Well... like is a tricky word. Every cell in my body is screaming at me. I am getting too old for this. 

My words were:
Escape
Denial 
Conversation 

This was easily my most efficient challenge in the entire time I have done these, which is about 8 times now I think. I got all the artwork done in 10 hours, managed a nap, and didn't have to rush on the scanning and formatting like I normally do. I use a H pencil for the rough lines and a charcoal pencil and compressed charcoal stick for the rendering. I tried to mix it up a bit here and there, and the pages aren't rendered in order ergo a lot of the effects are inconsistent as I got considerable more confident towards the end. The first page, for example, is the last page I rendered and it sort of sets you up for disappointment the rest of the way. 

The story is based on an old idea I wanted to do years ago about a cafe owner who felt lost in life. I never did anything with it though it stuck with me for years, changing format a few times depending on my mood at the time. This time I had keywords, so I tried to fit those in, and it changed the story as a result. I was going for a surreal tone, but was not sure what I was going to do until I started drawing the pages. As a result certain ideas are a little clumsy including the second last page which I am disappointed with because the original thrust of the argument was going to be very different. I have no idea why I drew her as an asian, I guess I just wanted a contrast while drawing. I worry that it comes off as insensitive as a result, I should have planned it all out better. Still, in most senses this is a personal story, a few of the ideas echo things I have thought in the past. 
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Today I turn 30. I thought I would go into what my art has meant for me over the last year, and why I have tried to so consistently post work on here. 

With a looming 30th birthday I started to reflect on my life. While in a lot of senses I have done a lot of interesting things and made some very meaningful steps forwards emotionally and intellectually, I have always found my art to be the part of my life that I was frustrated I did not achieve more. There were a lot of reasons for this but the most straightforward was the belief that I lacked the talent to do anything meaningful and the subsequent lack of confidence to prove that idea wrong. 

A friend of mine, several years older, had said he had used his 30th birthday as impetus to get into shape. This inspired me, and I decided a year ago that I would try and make as many strides forwards with my art in the year leading to my 30th as I could. I wasn't sure what I was going to achieve but I at least wanted to feel as if my art was in a place I could take some pride in it. I uploaded every piece I completed with a commentary so that I could reflect back on it later while also going out of my way to jump all over the place in terms of approach and style, because to me this was never about creating pieces, it was about the chronicle of my progress. 

This last year has been one of huge change. The first half was the end of a downward spiral that had taken everything from me, in a pretty literal sense. I took up the challenge because at the time my laptop and tablet were all I had and I could pretty much not afford to do anything else. That was where the art of 2k15 came from I would dedicate hours to pieces, agonize, restart, abandon. I hated how hard it was for me, I took no pride in my art or myself. To top it off, a few months in, around April, my tablet pen broke and I was left unable to do anything.

After a series of very unpleasant events I was able to get back on track. I got a job, moved into a new place with people I don't hate, bought a tablet off a friend of mine and around November got back on track. The art from this period is different, generally quicker and rougher as I use what precious little time I have after my 9 to 5 job to do all the typical 'adult living' junk but insisting I keep going even if it was tiring. 

And something changed. All of a sudden I could see it. As I hit New Year and started redrawing stuff from a year ago I was shocked. All the time, all the study and frustration, had started to pay off. Sometimes it wasn't visible in the final product but I could feel it. It would be achieving a piece in an hour that previously would take me 4. It was being happy with sketches. It would be trying new things out and getting why it worked. It was seeing my flaws, not being content in hiding behind certain things. I was enjoying my art and the progress felt like it was worth all of it. Even the feedback I got improved, from both strangers and artists I consider my superiors.

So now I am 30. Am I where I want to be artistically? Honestly, not really... though I wonder if I ever knew what I wanted to begin with. 

But do I feel as if I am making progress? More than I could ever have dreamed. 

Right now I am a hurricane of influences and approaches. Occasionally I hit that sweet spot of focus and achieve close to where I want to be, most of the time I just bash at the page until something works. But through at all I can feel the process tighten, the flow more natural, the edge more sharp. I get excited at the idea of creating a new piece, sometimes I will create two in a night. I keep posting up my pieces even knowing no one really cares, because to me looking back on a timeline of images and the steady progress visible through them has completely changed my outlook on art and my participation in it. 

Today I am 30. I don't feel different. Maybe my art doesn't reflect my age, I wasted so many years. But I am content that the me now is still growing and so is my art, and that I wouldn't have made this progress without the life I had lead. And finally I am starting to make peace with it all. 

A year from now I wonder where I will be. I've never been one to look ahead, to be excited about the future. But now that I am looking back from the milestone that I set for myself a year ago I finally get it. I suppose that is what art means to me. 

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TrioneCommissions Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2016
Thank you for the watch♥
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LornaKelleherArt Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2016
Thanks for the watch! :)
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RobotCatArt Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
2015-1024-ChibiNekoSticker by RobotCatArt  
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AdrianWolve Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for the watch ^^
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Treyzuka Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No worries. I enjoy your fanart, they have a nice tone and effect and are still recognisable even though they are drawn in your own style.

Keep it up, I will be sure to keep an eye on your work.
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tsukiko-kiyomidzu Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch! :D I really appreciate it! :hug:
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Ankredible Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2015  Professional
       :iconyoyorunleftplz: THANKS FOR THE +WATCH :iconyoyorunrightplz:
:iconmonkeyloveplz::iconyoyodance3plz: YOU ARE AWESOME :iconyoyodance3plz::iconmonkeyloveplz:
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Beauty-in-Oddity Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Student General Artist
wow, thanks for the watch WOW 
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Treyzuka Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Anyone who likes D is worth watching, haha.
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Beauty-in-Oddity Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Student General Artist
seems legit :D.
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